Mudikondan Sri Viswanathan Mama almost burst in tears, “So Periyava won’t give me darshan?” [“அப்போ, எனக்கு தரிசனமே கொடுக்க மாட்டாளா?”]
Why wouldn’t mama cry?
The moment Sri Viswanathan Mama’s turn came up in the queue, Periyava shut the doors. Not just once but thrice. Sri Mama was in tears.
Earlier, when he came to Chennai to see his pregnant wife, doctors gave a shock and they themselves were puzzled about her surgical delivery. In their own words, “Baby or Tumour?” [“கட்டியா? குழந்தையா?”], was their confusion. Mrs Viswanathan was having a giant size tumor along with the baby. She was at Kalyani General Hospital, a renowned hospital of those yesteryears. Doctors were contemplating which one to remove first (baby or tumor) and how one would affect the other. The team of doctors include even a senior visiting doctor from USA!
Sri Viswanathan Mama rushed to Periyava’s camp at Vanagaram without even having his food… He rushed to camp with the high hope of having the ‘theertham’ from Periyava’s hand.
One has to go empty stomach for getting ‘Theertham’. So Sri Mama rushed and reached there by 10.30 am only to hear that Periyava already began giving ‘Theertham’. His anxiety increased to several levels.
He almost jumped and took a dip in a lake close by and with somewhat dried or half-dried clothes rushed to the room cum hall where Periyava was giving ‘Theertham’. Mama stood at the entrance with the entire mind echoing “Prabho! Prabho!”
Mama saw many devotees waiting for Periyava’s darshan including those who did “Bikshavandanam” to Periyava on that day.. Does that mean Periyava completed His ‘Biksha’ after the distribution of the ‘Theertham’? Sri Mama was standing in a hurry-burry with a pleading heart to Periyava.
Periyava turned to him and called, “Come here!” [“இங்கே வா!”]
When Periyava called Sri Mama, everyone inside were surprised and looked at Sri Mama. Sri Mama jumped and rushed to Periyava like a calf running to the mother Cow. Periyava gave ‘theertham’, “Have this!” [“இந்தா வாங்கிக்கோ!”]. Sri Mama’s mind became peaceful.
Next order came in, “Will see you by 3pm!” [“மூணு மணிக்கு பார்க்கலாம்!”].
Sri Mama felt that Periyava knows. So he obeyed and left the place.
Someone called him for lunch and Sri Mama had his lunch. About 3:00 pm, Periyava began to give darshan. Again there was a queue of devotees standing. So Sri Mama went and stood there. Anxiety skyrocketed when his turn came but Periyava quietly shut the doors. Sri Mama’s anxiety about ‘Baby or Tumour’ [“கட்டியா? குழந்தையா?”] reached its heights.
Within few minutes, again a queue of devotees were having darshan of HIM on another side. Sri Mama rushed to that side and…and…when his turn came up, again the door was shut!
And it happened 3rd time too and Sri Mama burst in tears before reaching a side because he knew that it was done purposely. Innocently, Sri Mama queried to a Sevaka nearby, “So Periyava won’t give me darshan at all?” [“அப்போ, எனக்கு தரிசனமே கொடுக்க மாட்டாளா?”]
Sevaka has said… “Periyava will talk to you personally that’s why this is happening. So don’t give up your heart and don’t leave this place. Wait & have darshan…”
Sri Mama waited with a ray of hope…
Once the crowd dwindled, Periyava looked out! Periyava’s eyes cited Sri Mama and HE called mama. Again, like a calf Sri Mama rushed and submitted his prayer about the complications with his wife’s pregnancy.
Periyava asked a simple question that could shake anyone who is righteous.
“You’ve got this deep trouble. What’s the reason-da?” [“இவ்வளோ கஷ்டப்படறே… இதுக்கு என்னடா காரணம்?”]
We may easily say, “Lack of ‘karunai’ (mercy) from Periyava!”. But Sri Mama came from a ‘Dharmic’ lineage so his reply was ‘Dharmic’ and equally simple…
Sri Viswanathan Mama replied, “It’s all because of my own sins in the previous births. I won’t blame anyone…” [“எல்லாம் என் பூர்வ ஜன்ம பாவம்தான் காரணம்… நான் யாரையும் சொல்லமாட்டேன்!”]
“Oh! Then…”, After few seconds continued, “So, What can I do?” [“ஆங்! அப்புறம்… நான் என்ன பண்ண முடியும்?”]
- ‘Hey Prabho! ParamaDhayalO! Won’t you know why the world is praying to YOU?
- Are you not the JaganmAthA, saving us from our ‘prArabdham’?
- If you aren’t willing where else to go?’
Such prayers might have been flashing in Sri Mama’s mind.
Sri Mama uttered in surrendering mode, “I’m suffering… I’m crying… Praying for Periyava’s prasadam, which I’ll give to my wife… I don’t know anything else…”
ParamaDhayAlu looked at him. Ha! What a gracious look that was!
“It will just melt us away!” [“அப்படியே உருகிப் போயிடும் நமக்கு!”], says Sri Thiagu Thatha.
Periyava gave prasadam! Is there anything else in this world that is equal to Periyava Prasadam to resolve us away from our ‘prArabdham’.
It indeed did a miracle, literally. At Kalyani General Hospital, the tumour that doctors were debating over to take a decision, had actually vanished! Yes! Vanished! All the doctors including the visiting doctor from US were puzzled.
Atlast, everyone rejoiced at the ‘normal delivery’ of the baby and sighed a great relief, “Ah! We were bothered so much about ‘Baby or Tumour’… We shall name the baby!” [“எங்களை ‘கட்டியா… குழந்தையானு… என்னாப் பாடுப் படுத்திட்டா…யப்பா… அதனால நாங்கதான் பேர் வைப்போம்!”]
The baby girl born was named after their hospital – ‘Kalyani’ by those doctors. Today, after all these years, She lives as a testimony for Periyava’s ‘anugraham’.
The shaken faith of Sri Viswanathan Mama even after Periyava shutting the door on him thrice was answered when Periyava looked out of the door and called him.
Today’s Nectar :
Look out for us, Periyava!
Call us closer, Periyava!
[எட்டிப் பார்க்க வேணும், பெரியவா – எம்மைக் கிட்டே அழைக்க வேணும், பெரியவா!]
Ho Periyava! Hey JaganmAthA! Even now, most of the time, when the doors are shut, we could feel our faith on YOU getting shaken, but YOU , Kaarunya murthy, always open the door for all the better.
Give us that Patience, Periyava!
Give us that Shraddha, Periyava!
Give us that Bhakthi, Periyava!
Article Courtesy: navEdaham
Periyava is Avyaja Karunamoorthi personified and those who are having his Karunai are indeed blessed ones
TVKrishnan
periyava is blessing everyone. for some periyava makes them to realise that they are getting blessed.and for some he is not making them realise.
Oh, Yes!
In hiding the ‘Eswarathvam’, Maha-Periyava oru Maha-samarthar! Very similar to Lord Rama…
Listen to Sri Veezhi Mama’s video on few unguarded moments where Periyava revealed that He is indeed Eswara!
But for aspirants like me gets dis-illusioned, if we don’t see…
மறைந்து நிற்பதேனோ மறைப்பொருளே, நீயல்லால்
கரைந்தது பாதிவாழ்வும் கணக்கின்றி – வருவீரே
உறைந்த மீதினாளும் சிறக்கவே கருணை
நிறைந்த உம்கரம் கொண்டு.
Ram. Ram.
Jai GuruDev!
Periava kurunai kadashum. Surrender in thiruvadi always solves our karma
The anxiety Sri periyaval gave to mama was to wash out the bad prarabdha only. In those few hours mamas relevant sin was experienced and got exhausted
Aha! What a thought!
Must be that way.
Sri Govinda Damodara Swamigal, a devotee-mahAn of Periyava had once said that ‘Saints always bless! Even their curse, look like curse but eventualy one would reaize that it is a blessing’. Same way, any interaction with Periyava is a blessing!
Thank you for your insight.
Ram. Ram.
Jai GuruDev!
Wonderful post. This increases the bhakti and trust on the sage who walked on this earth. May he bless all.